I’ve been somewhat of a lifelong sufferer of night terrors ever since I was 11. My mum passed away earlier that year and it’s stuck with me for the past 13 years since.
I’m an only child and a daddy’s girl at that so when it first started occurring he would come in and console me when it was over and we’d end up both falling asleep snuggled up until morning.
Can’t remember when but at some point I started noticing his morning woods digging into me some mornings. It was all funny and innocent then, mind you. He’d be all apologetic and noticeably embarrassed when I brought attention to it.
What I do remember though is the morning it actually started turning me on. I was 14 and woke up with that familiar jab and for the first time I wondered what it would be like to feel him inside me. Before you start wondering, no my dad never showed any interest in me of that nature. I was never conditioned by him in anything sexual.
I knew that he was a deep sleeper as some mornings I could climb right over him to go to the bathroom and he wouldn’t even flinch. Over the next few times I began testing the waters. Some days I would edge my butt into his crotch to feel him pressed against my nethers. Others I would try unbuttoning his boxers to feel his hot, hard flesh with my fingers.
I was being driven crazy by the prospect of what I would be able to do. It took me at least a year of torturing myself like this before I finally got the courage to try something more… extreme.
I was 15. I’d never had sex with a guy but given my fair share of blowjobs. I’d long broken myself though thanks to my trusty dildo bought for me by an older friend. I ended up not really sleeping that night after a particularly nasty episode.
It was in the dark hours of the morning, I’d been having test feels for a while til I finally found that he was at his full glory. He was laying on his side which was perfect. I unbuttoned, pulled him out and rolled over. I was a knot of nerves by this point. When I steadied my breathing, I made the slow shuffle towards him.
After a few aching moments of fumbling aim it finally happened - my daddy’s cock was inside me. I couldn’t contain the moan that escaped me. I was weak and giddy and so fucking horny.
I rocked into him and savoured every moment. Every single sound seemed amplified; my breathing, the bed springs, even my grip on the metal headboard frame seemed loud.
I stopped just before I came, for fear the ecstacy would get the better of me. It was agony not to be able to just grind hard into him and just let myself cry out as my every being gave in for him. But I chickened out. That time anyway…
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Suffice to say, this experience was a rush - and I grew very addicted to the excitement. The next few attempts weren’t nearly as successful, in fact my night terrors were getting to be few and far between. On the rare occasion that I managed to slip into a similar position I was only met with frustration because I would freak out about waking him and be left unsatisfied.
With the lack of night terrors bringing him to my room, I began going to his. It got to a point where my body had trained itself to wake up in the early hours of the morning and be instantly aroused. It was awkward trying to do anything though. He almost always woke up when I tested him with a prod or a cough.
I wanted so much more from him, but it’s not as though I could just bring it up in discussion. “How was school, Baby Girl?”, “It was okay. Oh hey, do you want to commit incest with me?”. As much fun as I was having with him, I was a mess. He was my obsession, and it was tearing me apart.
He knew something was up with me and one day asked if anything was wrong. Like a silly little girl I just bawled and asked him to hold me. I didn’t say anything or do anything. I was just glad for the closeness.
The next morning I crept in and found him poking out of his boxers invitingly. As ever I was crazy horny and decided to try something I actually hadn’t done yet. I wanted to taste him. So I leaned over the bed and brushed his tip with my tongue. My heart leapt into my throat when he grunted in response. Me being the wreckless idiot I was, I’d forgotten to test if he was properly asleep.
But by then though my patience had worn thin. I went down and took as much of him in my mouth as I could. When I reached my limit I looked up to watch his face. He hadn’t woken up. I slowly began to move my head, he felt amazing moving in and out of my mouth. He started moaning and moving his hips. I realised then that he was waking up.
There was nothing I could do now to get away with it. Adrenaline exploded throughout my entire body. His movements and the sounds he made were only spurring me on. I went down on him with an almost ravenous hunger, watching his face the entire time. When he was finally awake enough, he looked down. Our eyes locked and I could see the confusion and indecision etched in his face. I knew, that even for a split-second he was trying to decide if he should stop his own daughter from continuing to pleasure him.
He gasped as I regained rhythm, but the next words out of his mouth were an agony. “No, Baby Girl. Stop. Don’t do this.” I gave a petulant whimper and moved faster out of desperation as though it would either change his mind or make him orgasm into my eager mouth. But he squirmed away and I felt him slide out of my mouth.
In a last ditch effort I tried to seduce him with sweet words. “Please daddy, I want you so bad.” But no sooner had I said them that I fell into another mess of sobs. I couldn’t contain the anguish. I don’t know if I was crying because I was caught, or because he had rejected me. He didn’t say anything and just took me in his arms with gentle shushing sounds. We stayed like that for I don’t know how long.
He took the day off work and called my school with some medical excuse. I didn’t do very much for most of the morning. Just stared at nothing. He made breakfast and we silently ate. I could barely look at him for fear of seeing disgust or anger or disappointment in his eyes.
I went into the lounge room as he cleaned up and he joined me a little while later. He still said nothing and I was grateful for that.
I broke the silence and things went from there. He asked questions and I asked questions. We were generally getting a lay off the land. It was a surprisingly honest conversation. I told him how long it had been going on and what I’d… accomplished.
It went on for hours. I told him what I wanted and that I wasn’t ashamed of it. By the end he told me he wasn’t angry but that he needed to think. He made a point of asking me not to do anything again. I of course complied.
The next few days went by as if nothing had happened. We were amiable with each other, but there was an aching distance between us.
My next episode emerged and when I came to I was surprised to find him there holding me. I told him that I loved him and we fell asleep. He wasn’t there in the morning though.
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So a few months passed with absolutely nothing happening. We were at least outwardly in the swing of a regular father-daughter relationship. “That Thing” as we eventually termed both the incident and my latent desires would pop up in our natural dialogues.
It was even a topic we occasionally joked about. “I can’t believe I managed to sleep through the neighbours arguing last night.” He would say, to which I would respond. “Dad, you can sleep through almost anything.” While giving him a knowing smile.
By all appearances it seemed as though he had accepted what I felt. That acknowledgement alone gave me a little hope that one day we would connect in a more intimate regard.
In that time we had both entered and exited the dating game without much luck. I used to joke that he was trying to throw me off his scent. In a way it did kinda hurt, but then I was doing the same thing so I didn’t really have a leg to stand on.
I always made sure he knew that I’d not so easily let it go. I even began walking around naked after showers or leaving my door ajar during my not-so-private times. I’d like to think that I was wearing him down. (Yes, this was evil, manipulative and underhanded. But damn it I was getting desperate!)
It all came to a head though when one evening I woke up in the middle of the night to get a drink. Our PCs are on the way to the kitchen. I guess my dad heard me approach because as I neared I heard frantic mouse clicking.
I laughed and asked him if he needed a hand. He hesitated a moment before denying he was doing anything untoward. I was burning with curiosity by this point and I asked him to show me what he was looking at.
He remained adamant that he was just browsing so I made a grab for the mouse and we laughed as I wrestled it from his grip. Now in control, I maximised the poorly hidden window.
The video was still playing in Xhamster. It was regular amateur POV porn, nothing special. I giggled and watched it for a bit. I unmuted the sound before saying that I’d leave him to it.
What I failed to notice however was the fact that he had himself out and was stroking as he watched both me and the video. I turned to see this and the apprehensive look on his face.
All I could think to say was “Daddy?” And he gave me such a warm and genuine smile. My heart melted and so did my loins. It was finally happening!
I’m smiling right now as I recall all of this. It’s amazing how much of it I can remember in such vivid detail. This was a very important day in my life after all. So many things were about to happen for the first time. I remember my first kiss with him and how his two or so days of not shaving tickled my lips and made me laugh. I liked that rugged look he had at that stage, it made me want him all the more.
I remember his chest moving up and down, the sound of his almost panicked breathing on the cusp of what we were about to do. I was 17 and for the first time in my life I was about to know someone, my own father no less, in the most intimate of ways. He would be my first lover, my first love, my first crime.
I lowered myself to my knees, watching him as he followed my every move. His eyes drifted away from mine and I saw a flicker of doubt there. “Dad.” He looked at me again and I knew I was right where I wanted to be. “It’s ok to want this.” He smiled again and sent my heart aflutter. A hand cupped the side of my face and I nuzzled affectionately into it.
“I love you, Baby Girl.”
“I love you, Daddy.”
He let out a hiss of pleasure as I took him into my mouth. I looked up into his eyes and smiled around him with a wink hoping to ease any further tension he may have had. He chuckled and ran a hand through my hair before letting out an exquisite moan. His head lulled back and his hips moved with my rhythm, maximising the depth he could plunge.
I’d like to say that I was able to deepthroat at the time, but I never thought to put in the practice and I did gag more than a few times in my attempts. After the first couple times he told me not to hurt myself, but by then I considered it a stubborn vendetta. I eventually gave up, giving a faux-angry grunt in my defeat through choking coughs.
Funny thing about all this. In my fantasies, I was imagining all this romance and the piano version of the Terminator theme (don’t ask, just roll with it). But even though that wasn’t entirely the case and we fumbled and laughed, it still felt so natural. We were exactly as we should be, this was just an extension of the relationship we’d always had.
I closed my eyes and gave him everything I had; kissing up and down his length, suckling on the underside of his head, fingers fondling the very balls I came from. It was overwhelming, the fact that I was here and now doing these things to him.
His moans began to intensify and I could see his knuckles had whitened from his grip on the arms of the chair. I knew he was close and GOD I wanted him to cream so badly. But I wasn’t going to waste this opportunity. If this was somehow a fluke and he would for some reason never again want to do it, I had to take every advantage of his current willingness.
I let him slide out of my mouth and I looked up at him. I kept my hands fondling and gripping and gently stroking. “I want you.” I cooed, then stood up and slipped off my PJ bottoms before making my way to my room.
I found myself in a bundle of nerves once again as I lay there waiting for him to come in. The next few moments seemed to take an eternity. I wondered if he was starting to have more doubts, if I should have just sat on him then and there regardless of the awkwardness of the office chair. I berated myself for giving him the choice.
After what seemed like an hour he appeared in my doorway, erect and bare. We exchanged smiles and I unbuttoned my top, suddenly realising I was over-dressed for the occasion. He crawled between my legs and knelt above me - my glorious, new and prized possession. For the longest time we just looked at each other, taking in every inch of flesh on display.
I heard a crackling and saw that he had a condom. “No,” I said taking it from him. “Just tell me when, I don’t want anything between you and me ever again.”
“Jesus, kid. You don’t do anything by halves do you?”
“I wonder where I got that from.” I retorted with a cheeky grin. We both went silent again as we contemplated what was about to occur.
He leaned down over me, his face barely an inch from mine and I felt him push into me. I gasped and arched my back. Years of teasing torture melted away as I finally took every inch of him deep within me. My hands roamed over his back as his hips ground into mine.
I knew that he no longer had any doubts. He wanted me as much as I wanted him. His pace and vigor picked up and I moaned with every thrust. I was weak with ecstacy, all I kept thinking about was, “This is my daddy, sliding in and out of me. Don’t stop, don’t let this end.”
But it all proved to be too much for me to bare. My body stiffened and I held my breath. I wailed with pleasure as a stream of orgasms engulfed me. “Daddy, don’t stop.” I struggled to say between each wave after having felt him slow down.
He continued to pound into my now over-wet nethers. I gasped with the force of it and looked up to find him looking down and watching the display for himself. He straightened up and grabbed my ankles in each hand, pulling my legs wide open so that he could see it all. I laboured up onto my elbows so that I could see too.
The sight was amazing. He gazed hungrily at the spectacle of him disappearing and emerging from within me. And for that matter, so did I. It was mesmerising and just… just so fucking hot.
His own moans intensified and one look from him told me all I needed to know. With all the strength I could muster from my trembling limbs I got up and pushed him backwards onto the bed. “Take my head.” I told him, before once again taking him as deep into my mouth as I could.
I tasted myself and him and was eager for a new flavour to enter the mix. As I had asked, his hands took my head and without any further hesitation he forced me up and down. I moaned and slurped and slightly gagged occasionally. His movements were animalistic. This was a side of him I never knew; and never, ever wanted to forget. It was such a turn on that I practically creamed myself again.
Then it happened. He groaned and gasped. “Baby Girl, I’m cumming. I’m…” And he released into my mouth. Truth be told, I wasn’t a big fan of it at the time but everything leading up to that moment made it the sweetest thing I’d ever taken. I kept his head in my mouth and stroked him as more and more or his seed shot down my throat.
When he was done I gently suckled for a bit longer, trying to coax any left over. Some had escaped my mouth and down his shaft, so I lapped up all I could find. When I was satisfied I sidled up beside him and laid my head on his chest. “I love you, Daddy.”
I felt his hand roam over my butt and up my back then to the side to cup one of my breasts. I got the distinct impression that he was taking possession of me. He squeezed me closer. “I love you, Baby Girl.”
His term of endearment for me took on a whole new meaning from then on. Even without the context of sex, every time he said it I found myself faltering from a brief bout of weakness. He was mine. I was his. And I wouldn’t let anything get between us again.